Why is it so hard to rest in our belovedness?
Brennan Manning wrote in Abba's Child: The Cry of the Heart for Intimate Belonging, “While the impostor draws his identity from past achievements and the adulation of others, the true self claims identity in its belovedness. We encounter God in the ordinariness of life: not in the search for spiritual highs and extraordinary, mystical experiences but in our simple presence in life.”
I love what Manning says here. And I wish I lived and loved and worked and ate and drank in my belovedness. But the truth is I live in my imposter-ness most moments of most days. I want so much to earn and receive the adulation of others. I want to know I’m beloved by my friends and family and acquaintances and social media connections. So I focus on that instead of the fact that my true self, my self that knows it is the beloved of God, can rest and stop striving and working to achieve whatever it is that I think I need to achieve to be worthy.
May God draw me closer into my true self where I claim my identity in my belovedness, and nothing else.
And in the meantime, may I recognize the free, everflowing grace and love of my God who knows I will not figure it all out or live perfectly in my belovedness on this side of eternity.
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