A Glad Heart (vol. 13)

I’m being more intentional about remembering and naming the gifts of happiness I receive. Here are a few things that gladdened my heart this  past week:

1. A new beginning
Tim started his new job with SunGard Availability Services. I admire his courage to leave the security of AT&T and look forward to seeing him take on new challenges. And I love that his office is 1 minute from our house in Woodlawn at SocialVenture.

2. Crestwood Day School
And our lovely last day of school celebration.  And THIS VIDEO the school made.

3. Breakfast for dinner
And some good time with our church small group.

4. This Salad

5. Brady’s baseball team making the playoffs.
The Royals are ranked 3rd and will play the 2nd place team on Tuesday. If they win that game, they will play in the championship game on Thursday.

6. Our first summer break trip to the library
One of my favorite things is checking out stacks of books for the kids. Now we just need to avoid the overdue fines…

7. Pentecost
And this post by one of my favorite bloggers. Here’s an excerpt:

There is much drama in the Pentecost story. Tongues loosened, gospel preached with reckless courage and received the same way. Wild comings to Jesus and all those souls folded in to something so profound it was incomprehensible. It still is.

Sometimes I long for that sort of wild Holy Spirit wind to blow firey into my small life: to light the ordinary and bring fearsome healing to the world around me.

Sometimes I lament the whole thing: My lack of spiritual drama. My small faithful moments and my small weak-willed faith.

And then I remember that there is no distinction in this sacred, this secular. Not really. There is a Holy Spirit renewing all of it, restoring the very foundations of the physical world. The Spirit has come and it has made all the beautiful things true. It is making all the true things beautiful. The Spirit has come to the physical world and the work of God is bright around us. –Micha Boyett

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A Glad Heart (vol. 12)

I’m being more intentional about remembering and naming the gifts of happiness I receive. Here are a few things that gladdened my heart this  past week:

1. A Happy Ending
Tim chose to start a job with a new company. Friday was his last day of his 15-year career with AT&T. He left on good terms, working his butt off up until the very end. I’m so proud of the work he’s done for AT&T and the clients he has had over the years, and I’m looking forward to watching him excel at SunGard.

2. My Parents
My mom and dad came up from Florida this weekend to see one of Brady’s baseball games and to bring Riley a white iron bed that has been in our family for 6 generations. We had a nice visit them.

3. My Counselor (Again.)
I’ve been struggling with depression on and off the past few weeks and have been a bit anxious, worrying that it’s going to get worse before it gets better. During my counseling session Thursday, Julie reminded me that I don’t need to be anxious about my depression because mild depression doesn’t always spiral downward into major depression. I can use the tools I have (cognitive therapy, meds, Bikram yoga, meaningful time with family and friends, alone time, chocolate, etc.) to live life in the midst of the struggle. All I need to do is show up and do the next thing. It is what it is. This is part of my life. I won’t always have a reason for my depression–sometimes it’s just be a chemical imbalance that can’t be helped. And I don’t need to be afraid of it.

4. The Ascension
And reading Eugene Peterson’s thoughts about the Ascension in Practice Resurrection. Here is some of what he has written:

When Paul’s companion Luke set out in Acts to tell us the story of the church, he began with Jesus’ Ascension. Ascension is the opening scene that establishes the context for everything that follows: Jesus installed in a position of absolute rule–Christ our King. All men and women live under the rule of Jesus. This rule trumps all other thrones and principalities and powers.

Knowing this, with the knowing elaborated and deepened in worship, the church has the necessary room to live robustly under the conditions of the resurrection. If we don’t know this, the church, its imagination conditioned by death and the devil, will live timidly and cautiously. (p. 43-44)

5. Some New Family Rules
When I met with Julie on Thursday, we also talked about some of the dynamics that exist between Riley and Brady. All siblings fight and push each other’s buttons. And one role I have as a parent is to help them learn how to be kind to each other and love each other. It can be overwhelming and exhausting to navigate those waters.  She gave me some family rules to put into place that will help all of the members of our family be for each other. I need these rules as much as my kids need them… Here they are:

Don’t ever tell anyone:
1) Who they are (name calling)
2) What they think
3) What they feel

We’ll see how this impacts how we deal with and communicate with each other.  I’m hopeful.

 

 

 

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A Glad Heart (vol. 11)

I’m being more intentional about remembering and naming the gifts of happiness I receive. Here are a few things that gladdened my heart this  past week:

1. Birthday wishes from friends and family

2. Prosecco

3. Lemon cupcake from Urban Standard

4. My 15th wedding anniversary

5. Alabama Shakes 

6. Retail therapy with some birthday money

 

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A Glad Heart (vol. 10)

I’m being more intentional about remembering and naming the gifts of happiness I receive. Here are a few things that gladdened my heart this  past week:

1. Tears
I cried during my counseling session on Thursday. Nothing major–just normal grief stuff that needed to come out. I had been holding in some of the sorrow from the previous week. It was time.

2. More tears
And I cried during my Bikram yoga class on Saturday morning. It wasn’t because of the intense heat or physical exertion. During the second set of cobra it felt like my heart was being exposed more than usual. And it was again time to let it out. No one except my instructor noticed, and after class she was very encouraging and told me it’s common. Sometimes the yoga brings stuff to the surface. That’s a good thing.

3. Remembering this verse:
“Sorrow is better than laughter, for by sadness of face the heart is made glad.” -Ecclesiastes 7:3 (ESV)
Maybe there’s something to that…

4. Other people’s children
It’s dance recital season, and Facebook is full of photos of little ones in their costumes. Love.

5. One child in particular
A dear friend’s baby arrived safely into the world early Saturday morning. He is a precious gift, and I’m thrilled to be a part of his village.

6. Dreaming of the beach
It looks like our family might get to have some time at the beach this summer. It’s been a few years since we’ve been able to pull it off, so I’m super-excited to be moving in that direction.

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A Glad Heart (vol. 9)

I’m being more intentional about remembering and naming the gifts of happiness I receive. This past week was a difficult one. The tragedies in Boston, Texas and other incidents all over the world were reminders that evil and brokenness are ever present. In addition, a few things that impacted me more directly have overshadowed my attempts to recognize any gifts of gladness. I’m tempted to skip a week, to not spend time looking for and remembering glimpses of goodness. But I don’t want evil to have the last word. So here goes… Here are a few things that gladdened my heart this past week:

1. Reminder of the truth
“Suffering, failure, loneliness, sorrow, discouragement, and death will be part of your journey, but the Kingdom of God will conquer all these horrors. No evil can resist grace forever.”
- Brennan Manning, The Ragamuffin Gospel: Good News for the Bedraggled, Beat-Up, and Burnt Out

2. More from Brennan Manning:
I read Ruthless Trust this week. I was very encouraged by Manning’s words and insight. Here’s a quote that I’ve read several times:

The enormous difficulty of pain, suffering and evil remains, heartache lingers, and there are certain wounds of the spirit that will never close…

However, a fleeting, incomplete glimpse of God’s back–the obscure yet real, penetrating and transforming experience of his incomparable glory–awakens a dormant trust. Something is afoot in the universe; Someone filled with transcendent brightness, wisdom, ingenuity, and power and goodness is about. In face of overwhelming evidence to the contrary, somewhere deep down a Voice whispers, “All is well, and all will be well.”

3. The ordinary
Cooking, doing laundry, refereeing Riley and Brady, having coffee with a friend, cheering at Brady’s baseball games, going about our usual tasks and remaining in the rhythm of our days provided comfort in the face of tragedy and pain.

4. Choosing kindness
Showing kindness to others is always a good option…

 

 

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A Glad Heart (vol. 8)

I’m being more intentional about remembering and naming the gifts of happiness I receive. Here are a few things that gladdened my heart this past week:

1. Wisteria
I have a fond memory of Riley playing under some wisteria when she was about 16 months old. She was so full of joy and curiosity, and I was just smitten with her. I was starting to settle into my role as a mom with more confidence and had the thought as I watched her that maybe this mothering thing was going to work out. Seeing wisteria each spring reminds me of that sweet day.

2. Medical Care
Brady has really been suffering this pollen season. We went to see an allergist for the first time on Tuesday. We left armed with a regimen that has given him some much needed relief.

3. Rest
The pollen (or something) took me down on Thursday afternoon. I spent most of the weekend in bed, since I had little energy for much else. Even though I didn’t feel well, the rest was nice.

4. Tim
Tim easily handled everything around the house and with Riley and Brady while I was trying to recover. He is a gift.

5. Orange Powerade
When I’m sick and water is not cutting it, orange Powerade is the way to go.

6. Reg’s Coffeehouse
I listened to Reg’s show on Birmingham Mountain Radio on Sunday afternoon for a couple of hours. Listening to music makes everything better.

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A Reason to Celebrate: Eastertide

This is the third post in my Making Space: A Journey with the Spiritual Disciplines series.

My Easter Sunday started early. I woke up at 5:45 a.m., bright-eyed, rested and refreshed.

This is the day the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it.

I sunk into the silence. The sun rose and its light crept in through the windows, along the edges of our bedroom window shades.

I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.

The rest of my family awakened a couple of hours later. We all gathered in the family room—Tim and I with our steaming cups of coffee and Riley and Brady with their Easter basket loot. The kids enjoyed their annual feast of chocolate and Pez candy while Tim and I watched their rate of sugar consumption with a bit of amazement.  Tim read the Resurrection story aloud from chapter 24 of the Gospel of Luke.

Why do you seek the living among the dead? He is not here, but has risen.

Later that morning we gathered with friends from our church for brunch at a home in our neighborhood like we’ve done every Easter for the past 4 years. This potluck meal is one I look forward to with great anticipation.  The food is always delicious and the atmosphere is always joyful. We are a fellowship of people who have known extreme loss, brokenness and sorrow. And we come together to acknowledge and celebrate the hope we have in the gospel. While some of us might be struggling to believe, we still show up to experience a foretaste of the great feast that we all know we will enjoy in eternity.

Alleluia, Christ is risen! He is risen indeed!

On Easter evening we worship with our full congregation. We sing hymns of praise, pray together, hear the Word of God and partake of the ultimate Feast—an even truer foretaste of the Great Eternal Feast.

This is my body, which is given for you. Do this in remembrance of me. This cup that is poured out for you is the new covenant in my blood.

I look at the members of my church family sitting around us. I know the beauty and the pain of their stories. And I imagine us in heaven, when all will be made right.

When He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning nor crying nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.

This year it was natural for me to enter into a celebration of Easter Sunday. Our family has been in a pleasant season for several months. We are all healthy, mostly happy and getting along with each other pretty well. We have known other seasons, so we are doing our best to enjoy and appreciate our current circumstances while we have them. I’m embracing the full Eastertide this year, which is a 50 day celebration of Easter. Who knows what will happen over this span of time? The first ten days have been relatively smooth, but I’m sure I will have days or weeks where I will have to practice celebration as more of a discipline rather than it occurring with ease.

Each morning I’m listening to the morning office of the Liturgy of the Hours so I can remember that this is a season of Alleluias. The Psalms, prayers, responses and Scripture readings point me to the reality of the resurrection as I start each day. I’m keeping fresh flowers on our kitchen table and a few beaded decorative Easter eggs in our family room during this time as visual reminders that this is a time of joy. I’m saying yes more often to requests from Riley and Brady for after-school treats and telling them that we are continuing our Easter celebration with the churros from Cantina Tortilla Grill or a fun snack from the Vineyard Food Market down the street. One day last week while eating one of his treats, Brady exclaimed, “I love Easter!”

As we inhabit this season with more attention and intention, I hope we will be able to see more clearly the beauty and the reality of the gospel truths–that Jesus lived a perfect life, died a horrible death and rose from the dead. He sits at the right hand of God and intercedes for us. One day He will return and gather His own for eternity. In Christ we are free from from the penalty sin, free to love and worship our Triune God, free to love and serve our neighbors and free to celebrate with joy and gratitude.

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A Glad Heart (vol. 7)

I’m being more intentional about remembering and naming the gifts of happiness I receive. Here are a few things that gladdened my heart this past week:

1. Alleluias
It’s Easter so the alleluias are back during our worship at church (I wish there were more…) and in the liturgy of the hours responses. (I listen to the liturgy of the hours via my divineoffice.org iPhone app every night and some mornings.)

2.  Peace
John 20:19: On the evening of that day, the first day of the week, the doors being locked where the disciples were for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said to them, “Peace be with you.” (ESV)
I’ve been thinking a lot this week about how Jesus is our peace. Through the gospel we have peace with God, with each other and with ourselves. May we taste the peace He offers on a daily, or even hourly, basis.

3. Cherry Trees
They are blooming all over Birmingham. One house down the street has two huge cherry trees, so I get to walk under a canopy of blossoms every morning with my dog, Happy.

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4. A New Rug
We bought this rug from Home Depot for our living room. It looks nice and the price is great. The room is much brighter and more inviting.
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5. Celebration
I’m currently practicing the spiritual discipline of celebration. More here and more to come in the very near future.

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Making Space: The Discipline of Celebration

This is the second post in my Making Space: A Journey with the Spiritual Disciplines series.

From mid January to early March in 2007, Riley, Brady and I lived in a beach house along Highway 30-A in South Walton County, Florida. This is my most favorite place, and we had the privilege of being able to stay there while waiting for construction to complete on our current house in Birmingham. Our routine was filled with meals, play time on the beach and at a local playground, trips to Target and Publix, afternoon rest time, and  enjoying as many sunsets as possible. Tim’s work schedule allowed him to spend long weekends with us, and several friends came to visit throughout our stay. My parents were only 45 minutes away, so we were able to see them often, as well. That winter on the coast was a beautiful time that I will always cherish.

One morning in early February, Riley (who was 4 years old at the time) woke up and proclaimed that it was her beloved stuffed tiger’s birthday and she wanted to have a party. It’s not my natural tendency to celebrate, so I was tempted to dismiss her and her idea. But I pushed past my first reaction and discovered a desire deep within me that wanted to join her in her joy. So that day Riley, Brady and I  purchased an ice cream cake, birthday candles, party hats and noisemakers. After dinner we had a lovely party and celebrated Didi’s life.

Looking back on that event, I can now see that Riley was possibly subconsciously trying to feel rooted in the midst of what was a time of transition and chaos for our family while we were without a home of our own. Before moving out of our previous house, we had just completed a season of celebrating Advent, Christmas, Tim’s birthday on December 5, her birthday on December 7 and Brady’s birthday on January 4. Maybe having another birthday party helped her feel like things weren’t so unstable. Or maybe she just wanted some cake. Either way, I believe she exhibited a God-given desire to celebrate, and I’m glad my own desire was kindled so that Brady and I could participate with her and Didi that night.

As I begin my journey with the spiritual disciplines, I’m focusing on the discipline of celebration. It’s the first discipline under the first section of “worship” disciplines in Adele Calhoun’s Spiritual Disciplines Handbook, so it seems like a good place to start. It’s also great timing, since we just entered the ultimate church year season of celebration this past Sunday with Easter. Over the next several weeks I’m going to explore what it means to celebrate. I want to inhabit the Easter season more deeply than I have in the past. I want to learn how to notice other reasons to celebrate that are oftentimes hidden in the ordinary. I want to  embrace my upcoming birthday and discover a new way to mark the year that has past and look forward to the year that awaits me. I want to foster a sense of celebration in our family that doesn’t deny lamentation and sorrow, but accepts them, knowing that there’s hope and joy on the other side.

I pray throughout this journey I’ll come to better understand and taste what God says in Jeremiah 31: 12-14:

They shall come and sing aloud on the height of Zion,
and they shall be radiant over the goodness of the Lord,
over the grain, the wine and the oil,
and over the young of the flock and the herd;
their life shall be like a watered garden,
and they shall languish no more.
Then shall the young women rejoice in the dance,
and the young men and the old shall be merry.
I will turn their mourning into joy;
I will comfort them, and give them gladness for sorrow.
I will feast the soul of the priests with abundance,
and my people shall be satisfied with my goodness,
declares the Lord.  (ESV)

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A Glad Heart (vol. 6)

I’m being more intentional about remembering and naming the gifts of happiness I receive. Here are a few things that gladdened my heart this past week:

1. My Grandparents
My aunt made a slideshow from my grandparents’ photo collection. I’m so grateful for them and for their example of love and faithfulness.

2.   Observing Holy Week and Celebrating Easter
This quote from Joan Chittister’s The Liturgical Year rings true:

The liturgical year sweetens life. It affirms human feelings, all of them, happy as well as sad, mournful as well as ecstatic. It makes room in life for feasting and for fasting. It tells us that life is a medley of sweet and sour, of the pungent and the soothing. It wakes us up to our own feelings and shines the light of faith on them.

3. Tulips
It’s been months since we’ve had fresh flowers in our home. Why, oh why has it been so long? I bought a bouquet of tulips in honor of Easter and have decided to keep flowers on our table for the full 50 days of Eastertide.

4.  Baseball
Brady’s first game of the season was yesterday. His team lost, but he had his first career home run. Good times.

5. “10-line Tuesday”
I receive a poem in my inbox every Tuesday from Maya Stein. You can read some of her poems and sign up for “10-line Tuesday” here. Just in time for National Poetry Month.

 

 

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